Beginnings

I've never really been much one for witting, or sharing my thoughts. I don't know why, but I've for the most part been a closed off person. So i really don't know what made me decide to write a blog. Maybe it's to vent sometimes. Or it could be because for most of my life, I've tried to emulate my older brother, and I'm still trying to do it somewhat. But for some reason, tonight, it seemed like a good way to vent my thoughts and feelings, and still say sane.

Over the last five months I've been living the life of a college student, which is new for me. It's much different from home in so many little ways, that it would take too long to explain, but anyone who has done it understand. For me, settling in was not that difficult. I've moved before, multiple times. So I'm used to getting to know a new place. It has been somewhat difficult though. For one, the apartment complex I live in is off campus. Being a freshman, this makes most everyone older than I am. Then you add on the fact that most of the guys who live here served two year missions before coming to school, so that adds a extra 2 years to the closest age to me. Since I'm also planning to go on a mission, that also means that most of the friends I make this year, will already have graduated by the time I get back, and will have moved on, which means the whole long process it is for me to make friends will have to be repeated. That gets old after awhile. So over the next 2 months hopefully I'll build relationships that will still be there when I get back.

I guess my title makes sense. I am rambling. But that's ok. This is for me to vent a little bit so I don't go insane. If anyone reads it...well. They'll just have to piece it together what I'm saying.